There are three things I know for sure:
1. the moon is only bright because it’s light comes from the sun
2. God is the creator of the heavens and the earth
3. I have never had a boyfriend…
Woah, HOLD THE PHONE…..SINGLE GIRL SAY WHAT!!
Oh and to answer your next question I am indeed 27 years-old!! No you didn’t miss read it. What you are about to read is what I like to call:
“confessions of a Single girl”
So here is goes ……my heart written on my sleeve for all to see….
The fact that I am sharing this is a big step for me. If you would have asked me 9 years ago I would have blew it off and never really gave you an answer. I wouldn't even really bring up the whole boyfriend thing because if I did then the question would come up and that was something that I never wanted to answer……..the fact of the matter was I was embarrassed. You might be wondering how in the world did I end up being a 27 year never having a boyfriend?
I guess I would have to start when I was fourteen! I was shown what happens when the wrong guy showed up in your life…Moods change, fights start, people are forgotten that once meant so much to you..I WANTED NO PART OF IT! I watched some people extremely close to me loose who they were. If someone was going to have tears for me it would be I am proud of you tears, not I don’t understand you tears. So I started build walls, brick walls high enough that no one could penetrate.
My theory was:
IF I NEVER LET ANYONE IN I WILL NEVER GET HURT!
Which in theory maybe kinda works, but no one and I mean NO ONE should have to live like that….How can we live with walls up? There would be no room for growth…think of it this way, when you have a lizard or a snake they only grow as big as a tank they are kept in. Right?! Maybe we should take a look to see if have built a tank around ourselves.
That’s what I had to do. These past 9 years God has been pulling at my heart strings, and it hasn’t been until these past few years I have started to separate and put the strings in order.
As painful and scary as it was I had to be honest, brutally honest with myself, honest with those around me and most of all honest with God….saying things I had never let escape from my lips, not even to be best friend of 17 years!
My friend Marissa Olvera writes too and she wrote a particular blog on this whole dating thing…this was my response to her:
“Marissa you took the very words out of my mouth. Sometimes I feel like God never hears my prayers and I am destined to walk this life alone, but that is just the doubt, in me, talking. I watched what the wrong guy in your life does to people and I never wanted it. To tell you the truth it scared me to even think of having a boyfriend when I was younger. So I shut my heart to the world and ended up building walls that are just now starting to come down. I admit I shamefully used God as an excuse to never be hurt, if i tell them God is going to pick my guy then they will leave me alone, was my mentality. But funny how God works, this time of feeling that i used God, he was working in me. Building me to be a strong woman of God and preparing me for good things that are going to be coming, and helping me tear down the many walls I build. I do want to be married and have kids one day, which if you asked me these 5 years ago I would never be able to say out loud. I want this all in God's Timing. So this 27 year old that has never had a boyfriend is still waiting for the imperfect, perfect person to sweep me off my feet. Stay Strong Marissa God has good things in store for the both of us!”
(read that very blog here http://myownmarissafix.weebly.com/1/post/2011/06/im-still-waiting-for-you-to-be-the-one-im-waiting-for.html)
God broke me down, and made me listen …I was NEVER GOING TO BE ALONE! And I knew what that meant and it scared the crap out of me….I started to cry!
WHAT GIRL CRIES, WHEN THEY ARE TOLD THEY ARE NEVER GOING TO BE ALONE!
THIS GIRL....ugh! :)
God knew my heart already; He already knew I didn’t want to be alone. He was just saying the thing that I didn’t have the courage to say. He was being my Strong Tower. He is starting to take my wall down bricks at a times with His own hands.
I learned some things all though out this time:
I am NOT EMBARRASSED anymore! I am who I am take it or leave it!
GIRLS/Women NOT all guys are EVIL=remember God is preparing one for you!
Guys=we women are not all crazy, well ….never mind just learn to find your right kind of Crazy!
Search God for the answers..they are ALWAYS right
I really wasn’t ready for any relationships when I was younger…relationships take work, hard work, and if you are not ready for that hard work you probably shouldn’t be dating
I only have one heart to give (i.e if I am going to date it’s going to be to marry)
That I don’t have to lower my standards for anyone, meaning I don’t have to settle!
That I want what God wants for my life. God has been preparing me for something great!
That I have a job and that is to share what I know and what I experience, and what God has given to me to further His Kingdom.
So if you find yourself in my shoes, let me tell you I know it’s not an easy road to follow. Sometimes doubt still fills my head, why did He make me this way? what if I am not pretty enough, smart enough, , skinny enough, good enough…what if, what if, what if?
AAAHHHH!!! STOP!
News FLASH: I AM NOT PERFECT! But guess what neither are you but that’s okay because God doesn’t understand perfect the way we see it...HIS PERFECT DOESN'T EVEN COMPARE TO OURS ITS BETTER! …He LOVEs us no matter! And he did make me all those things and more!
So Be the princess waiting for her perfectly imperfect prince, or the prince waiting for his perfectly imperfect princess. No this is not a fairy tale world but what would happen if you were kissing a Frog when your prince was riding past you? would he even glance your way?
Never settle and NEVER BE ASHAMED OF WHO YOU ARE!!!! NEVER!!!
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will” ROMANS 12:2
Let’s rise up an army that puts God first! The rest will Follow in HIS, let me say it again HIS perfect timing!
9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 1 peter 2:9
<3 Angie
God has my heart may the right man climb up to Him and ask to take care of it her on earth.
1. the moon is only bright because it’s light comes from the sun
2. God is the creator of the heavens and the earth
3. I have never had a boyfriend…
Woah, HOLD THE PHONE…..SINGLE GIRL SAY WHAT!!
Oh and to answer your next question I am indeed 27 years-old!! No you didn’t miss read it. What you are about to read is what I like to call:
“confessions of a Single girl”
So here is goes ……my heart written on my sleeve for all to see….
The fact that I am sharing this is a big step for me. If you would have asked me 9 years ago I would have blew it off and never really gave you an answer. I wouldn't even really bring up the whole boyfriend thing because if I did then the question would come up and that was something that I never wanted to answer……..the fact of the matter was I was embarrassed. You might be wondering how in the world did I end up being a 27 year never having a boyfriend?
I guess I would have to start when I was fourteen! I was shown what happens when the wrong guy showed up in your life…Moods change, fights start, people are forgotten that once meant so much to you..I WANTED NO PART OF IT! I watched some people extremely close to me loose who they were. If someone was going to have tears for me it would be I am proud of you tears, not I don’t understand you tears. So I started build walls, brick walls high enough that no one could penetrate.
My theory was:
IF I NEVER LET ANYONE IN I WILL NEVER GET HURT!
Which in theory maybe kinda works, but no one and I mean NO ONE should have to live like that….How can we live with walls up? There would be no room for growth…think of it this way, when you have a lizard or a snake they only grow as big as a tank they are kept in. Right?! Maybe we should take a look to see if have built a tank around ourselves.
That’s what I had to do. These past 9 years God has been pulling at my heart strings, and it hasn’t been until these past few years I have started to separate and put the strings in order.
As painful and scary as it was I had to be honest, brutally honest with myself, honest with those around me and most of all honest with God….saying things I had never let escape from my lips, not even to be best friend of 17 years!
My friend Marissa Olvera writes too and she wrote a particular blog on this whole dating thing…this was my response to her:
“Marissa you took the very words out of my mouth. Sometimes I feel like God never hears my prayers and I am destined to walk this life alone, but that is just the doubt, in me, talking. I watched what the wrong guy in your life does to people and I never wanted it. To tell you the truth it scared me to even think of having a boyfriend when I was younger. So I shut my heart to the world and ended up building walls that are just now starting to come down. I admit I shamefully used God as an excuse to never be hurt, if i tell them God is going to pick my guy then they will leave me alone, was my mentality. But funny how God works, this time of feeling that i used God, he was working in me. Building me to be a strong woman of God and preparing me for good things that are going to be coming, and helping me tear down the many walls I build. I do want to be married and have kids one day, which if you asked me these 5 years ago I would never be able to say out loud. I want this all in God's Timing. So this 27 year old that has never had a boyfriend is still waiting for the imperfect, perfect person to sweep me off my feet. Stay Strong Marissa God has good things in store for the both of us!”
(read that very blog here http://myownmarissafix.weebly.com/1/post/2011/06/im-still-waiting-for-you-to-be-the-one-im-waiting-for.html)
God broke me down, and made me listen …I was NEVER GOING TO BE ALONE! And I knew what that meant and it scared the crap out of me….I started to cry!
WHAT GIRL CRIES, WHEN THEY ARE TOLD THEY ARE NEVER GOING TO BE ALONE!
THIS GIRL....ugh! :)
God knew my heart already; He already knew I didn’t want to be alone. He was just saying the thing that I didn’t have the courage to say. He was being my Strong Tower. He is starting to take my wall down bricks at a times with His own hands.
I learned some things all though out this time:
I am NOT EMBARRASSED anymore! I am who I am take it or leave it!
GIRLS/Women NOT all guys are EVIL=remember God is preparing one for you!
Guys=we women are not all crazy, well ….never mind just learn to find your right kind of Crazy!
Search God for the answers..they are ALWAYS right
I really wasn’t ready for any relationships when I was younger…relationships take work, hard work, and if you are not ready for that hard work you probably shouldn’t be dating
I only have one heart to give (i.e if I am going to date it’s going to be to marry)
That I don’t have to lower my standards for anyone, meaning I don’t have to settle!
That I want what God wants for my life. God has been preparing me for something great!
That I have a job and that is to share what I know and what I experience, and what God has given to me to further His Kingdom.
So if you find yourself in my shoes, let me tell you I know it’s not an easy road to follow. Sometimes doubt still fills my head, why did He make me this way? what if I am not pretty enough, smart enough, , skinny enough, good enough…what if, what if, what if?
AAAHHHH!!! STOP!
News FLASH: I AM NOT PERFECT! But guess what neither are you but that’s okay because God doesn’t understand perfect the way we see it...HIS PERFECT DOESN'T EVEN COMPARE TO OURS ITS BETTER! …He LOVEs us no matter! And he did make me all those things and more!
So Be the princess waiting for her perfectly imperfect prince, or the prince waiting for his perfectly imperfect princess. No this is not a fairy tale world but what would happen if you were kissing a Frog when your prince was riding past you? would he even glance your way?
Never settle and NEVER BE ASHAMED OF WHO YOU ARE!!!! NEVER!!!
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will” ROMANS 12:2
Let’s rise up an army that puts God first! The rest will Follow in HIS, let me say it again HIS perfect timing!
9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 1 peter 2:9
<3 Angie
God has my heart may the right man climb up to Him and ask to take care of it her on earth.