I was just sitting on my bedroom floor. I just got done reading one of my friend's blogs. It was basically about letting God be in control of everything even when the odds are against you just kneeling on the floor worshiping Him. I was thinking:
could I ever have enough courage to not run when there is a pretty good chance I might die in this battle.
Or would i run like a coward?
I DON'T WANT TO BE A COWARD!
I don't want to run
i want to be in the front lines
bloodied and bruised
physically worn out with my hand out stretched to the sky!
My pastor was talking about courage one time, and he mentioned this passage:
Peter answered, "Lord, if it is you, order me to come to you on the water."
Jesus said, "Come!" So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus.
But when he noticed how strong the wind was, he became afraid and started to sink. He shouted, "Lord, save me!"
Immediately, Jesus reached out, caught hold of him, and said,
"You have so little faith! Why did you doubt?"
When they got into the boat, the wind stopped blowing.
The men in the boat bowed down in front of Jesus and said, "You are truly the Son of God." [Matthew 14:28-33]
Now Peter might have doubted But he got out of that boat. HE STEPPED OUT! I want to be that person that every day steps out of the boat, knowing i might get eaten by sharks, drown, or worse, and understand that GOD is only arms length away. I don't want to be a "safe Christian" that pulls out the first aid kit only when i am bleeding.
"I let it go to breathe
I can't take it anymore
I refuse to wake up one more time bleeding on the floor
I won't let myself hold back
I'll surrender what's inside
You become my healing tourniquet
So I can feel alive" krystal Meyers
So I am ready to start FEELING ALIVE!!! and let go of all the insecurities that I hold inside and try new things..the things that scare the crap out of me! Write my heart on my Sleeve for all to see!
It is my prayer that all that read this get encouraged to step out of the boat along with me, and refuse to bleed anymore! Follow what God has so awesomely planned . Because when we take that first scary step it is there where we find out who we really are!
"Give me strength
And give me grace
To walk with You
Lord, all my days
So with all my heart and all my soul
With all I am, Lord, I will follow You
You took the cross, You took my shame
Restored my life, now I live to worship You
Without You I am nothing
Without You I am nothing
Without You I am nothing!!!"
Hillsong United Search My heart!